Money is Boring

Dealing with money is really lame. I mean, getting a paycheck is fine, and buying stuff is fine, and even buying groceries and paying rent is ok, but having to pay gas bills and health insurance and figure out my taxes and pay off loans and wonder if I'm going to have a job this summer and whether I can get anyone to sublease my apartment...that is getting me down. Maybe that's why I came home from work and started playing games on neopets.com again (haven't for a couple years).

Went to Topeka today. I kinda liked it. Different atmosphere. Not that I really got to see much of the place. Just drove through a few blocks on my way to work.

I've been reading through Passion and Purity (VERY slowly this time) for about the 3rd time. You definitely take away different things from it when you've got someone particular in mind than when you don't. I fall into the second category right now. Not that there's not men I admire, but I'm not fooling myself. When God begins that relationship, then the man will pursue me. I won't have it any other way.

Passionate About Something

Wow...

It really has been a while since I've made an update. Told you I was bad at journaling.

I've pretty much decided to keep working at KFL and not seek another job. If I get a job offer in Lawrence, I may consider it, but I do really believe that I'm filling a void at KFL right now. True, I don't know where anything at the office is, and most of the time I have to refer all the phonecalls to my boss because I don't know anything. But without me, the phone wouldn't even get answered most of the time. :p Plus, I am really passionate about this issue. It is more and more obvious the longer I work there.

That being said, it is a good cause to be passionate about. But how often am I that passionate about Christ? Hardly ever, and not nearly enough. Father, give me a real passion for Your glory. Stronger than it ever has been. And always growing. Make me bold for the sake of Your Name and Your reputation. Let me be as confident in speaking about You as I am (or rather, as Mary Kay is) in telling people why abortion is wrong. Let me be that familiar with Your Word and the gospel. Let me hunger for knowledge of You as much as and more than I desire to be educated about prolife issues. Make me ready to speak Your praise. Everywhere I go, may I tell the gospel to everyone I meet. That is too high a standard for me to obtain. But Father, it is not too difficult for You.

I also have a deepening conviction about praying for my team this summer. God, first of all, give me an overwhelming desire to pray for them. Secondly, give me a love for them such that it really is a joy to sacrifice on their behalf. Make me into the kind of leader they need, willing to take the short end of the bargain in order to see them grow; being an example in the way I live; and willing to show all my failures in order that they may have hope. I really want to pour myself out for them. But I need to start now, with the relationships I currently have, otherwise I won't know how when I meet my team.

On a COMPLETELY unrelated note: Ligers really do exist. They have one at the Sierra something Zoo. There are pictures on their website. I doubt, however, that they are bred for their skills in magic. I'm too lazy to look up the website right now, so you can do the work. :p Goodnight.